Something real

WELLLL....I feel like I have a lot to rant about. Like i said in the title, I need something real (God, Friends, etc.) I havent been at work for a while, so therefore i havent blogged. lol Im going to try to sum things up quick so its not just one big boring day-by-day explanation. Plus, I wouldnt want to bore you!

Last week I went to gulf shores with my family. Um...came back and my cousins were in town from Missouri, so we have been busy with them all this week.

As you all know, I am a Christian...and im not afraid to say it. But for the past few years I havent felt very secure in a "church home" or with the people that are usually in that scene. Nothing seems set in stone, and its just not very reliable. I just long for something thats concrete. I was attending a church last year and then everything crumbled and fell through the cracks. People were putting others down for not jumping on the Calvanism band-wagon and yeah, they were all christians believing in the same God, but at the same time they just wanted to argue and pull each other apart.

I think that I need something that isnt changing to feel secure in my walk with God. Just like God himself is unchanging.

Monday I went to a redbirds game with Claire and by the time we finally got back to my car, the garage was closed...and my car was locked inside. lol So, that was an experience! Tuesday, was the worst day EVER...and then that night I went to a horse show with my family because my cousin was riding. He ended up getting thrown off his horse. That wasnt fun. Yesterday, we went to the lake and then me, nathan, and claire went and got ice cream. Then we went out to my dads house so they could embarrass me. To be honest, it really pisses me off that evertime i bring someone over to the house my family has to act like fools. They dont do it unless someone is over...BUT needless to say, that wont happen again. That way i wont have to worry about my dad and his ruthless beliefs about politics and argumentative step-mom.

Im so tired of being nice to people and being there for them time after time, going out of my way to help them and then not getting ANY support back in the friendship whatsoever. Ive decided that im not going to allow myself to fall into the trap of doing things for someone and not recieving the same things back. Im not going to be the only friend and im sick of doing everything under the sun for people who could care less and then end up putting me down in the end. Its extremely exhausting and I have plenty of things to worry about already, I NEED A GOOD FRIEND, PEOPLE! Thats the end of being used!

Im sorry if this blog seems negative, but its life....so, i hope you all have a wonderful day! :)