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I was riding my bike and I saw you. Directly beneath the trees and the shadows. Leaves falling all around you. You were walking briskly towards me, not to me, but close enough. You walked right past and I was jealous. I turned and asked your name but didn't pay attention to the answer. I was amused by the silver of your hair swaying with the wind. I pretended like I knew things, made them sound good just to gain your attention, but you saw past it too quickly and walked on by. I climbed down the rocky hill and sat quietly by the edge of the water. Halfway watching a father and son fish, but mostly only listening to the birds. I looked up and was engulfed by the sight of the sunset, the clouds somehow portrayed a bridge that filled up the gap between me and heaven. I wondered if you would be there, but more so I was interested in who you were. Those eyes pierced me so familiarly, your face was wrinkled and dismayed. Memories flooded my mind and I didn't even notice the tide coming in, causing the bottom of my pant legs to get wet. Standing up, I brushed the sand off my legs and preceded to roll up the bottom of my jeans. Step by step I walked along the edge of the rocks trying to only place my feet on the ones that were sturdy. It got easier as I went farther and I began to notice which ones would fall before I even placed my foot on them. I heard something behind me and turned to look. My foot got caught and I fell down fast. I looked up from the ground and realized it was you. I stared at you Until you finally reached out your hand to me, offering your help. I didn't trust it, but I wanted to so badly. I lifted my body slowly off the ground by myself and reached out my arms as far as I could manage. "I just want you to love me." were the only words I could muster. You held me and I sobbed. So hard that my body shook and I could feel the cries reaching up from the bottom of my stomach. You didn't seem to try and make it better, but instead wanted me to let it out. The sun was even lower now and I pictured your image fading fast. I could no longer see you or feel your presence, but I hoped that someday I would. That maybe I might have your love again without trying to gain it. I could no longer be swayed by your intentions or beliefs.