Pledging to Accept

Lost in dreamland, you suddenly jolt up and look around. Your alarm has decided to not go off every Monday for the past three weeks, and as soon as you open your eyes you can tell this isn't going to be a great day. It is now 7:17 and you're supposed to leave your house at 7:20. Throwing on whatever comes at you first, the thought of skipping comes to mind. Then you remember that if you miss one more day you will be dropped from the class. Finally, at 7:34 you are sprinting out to your car. For the remainder of the day, everything gets under your skin. You are annoyed by every little thing that passes, and even your teachers voice gets on your nerves. Work comes around and you can't seem to do anything right, never being able to please anyone.

Laying in bed that night, your mind is scanning through the day. Suddenly, you remember a math test you have tomorrow. On top of that, you can't stop thinking about this guy you have a crush on that didn't exactly make an effort to speak to you today. Drifting off to sleep, you decide to "let God handle it"

You won't lose sleep on thinking about how many teens in America get pregnant yearly. Moreover, the amount of babies that will be aborted just this month. You won't worry about how many people are dying every minute, just to find themselves burning in Hell for eternity. The thought of people in Africa who are contracting and spreading Aids will never cross your mind. You won't be bothered by the thought of how many homeless people are roaming around Memphis nightly with no comfy bed to sleep in, or a pillow to rest their head on.

Today I was reading this book I bought Saturday. It reminded me of how horrible sex before marriage really is. Not just because of the obvious, but because of how it can tear apart your heart also. Even just oral sex. One line in the book said "There is no way to get around it.....no condom is big enough to cover a whole human heart." How true. Don't be on level "Easy" it's not just a game of solitare on your computer, it's life. It's heartbreak.


I want to be a social worker because I understand how it feels to go through pain. Someone who has never felt pain, and has never experienced true love should never have a job like that in my opinion. It's like a Foreigner trying to teach a American their own language. They wouldn't understand where that American is coming from.

Two weeks ago I had this Psychology test that I completely forgot about. I knew I needed to read my bible that morning, but instead I decided to study. I failed. Miserably. (and psychology is one of my better classes)
Last week the same thing happened, except it was in my weakest subject, math. I decided to skip studying and read my bible like I knew I should. I just knew I would fail. I knew none of the material....I made an A!

Thank you Lord for being everything I need. You continue to amaze me.

With Love from Christ Alone,
Shelby Owen Esther